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Ittai!

Was having a pretty good dream and a short, sharp pain came out from nowhere. Before I knew it, I found myself sprawling on the dining table, immersed in a pain so bad, my vision went black and I could only see the faint outlines of my grandmother, the maid and a Mickey Mouse cup.

Intense. Immense. Intolerable.

Yes, I almost fainted from the pain. Turns out my body’s very late for this coming period cycle and that was just a little warning sign to inform me to wear a pad to work today.

Little is my foot. Not the pain inside my womb.

Ended up on the other end of the apartment, on my dad’s bed with a huge comforter over my lower body and cold sweat. Wriggling in my own bouts of screams and tears, Grandmother came over to provide some warmth to my icy cold feet. Her hands felt so warm, without it I think my feet would have dropped off due to lack of blood supply and 30 degree celcius frost bite.

Thank goodness I have my maid bring warm towels.

But the pain. Argh the pain. The most excrutiating one I’ve ever had. The last one happened 5 years ago, just was I was preparing to go to school. And I know this one is the worst because it felt like diarrhea AND cramps were happening at the same time.  Took an entire half hour to qwell the pain that is my womb.

Ittai.

Slowly drifted off into a deep sleep from all the exhaustion. No fan, no ventilation, but not cold either. Thank goodness.

So glad to be alive.

Urges

When I was young, I made a vow to myself to protect my virginity at all costs. Well..

Things have changed. And I wish I could lose it once and for all, so that I can stop thinking about it.

Fuck those visions. Just leave me alone!

..

Sigh..

Suffering from mild depression and slight insanity. Somebody please…bring me out and look at things. I cannot stay cooped up like this any longer.

All this stress is making me so haggard, i swear… Sigh.

What Resolution?

My Year 2009 resolution is: to have no resolution at all.

Okay. Get this straight, everytime I have a resolution, it ends up in a total disaster. Nothing resolute ever comes out of my good brains. So here’s what I’m gonna do. Its not a resolution. Its just something I MUST do in order not to feel like a failure:

I’m gonna pass my exams, get a second lower for my Honours degree. Gotta make my mom feel proud that at least I’m capable of getting honours that she would never have been able to get.

Something else too. Quit smoking all together. Then I won’t have to wonder whether the girl opposite me would spare me a ciggie when we’re hanging out in the backyard of Zouk, seeing my friends puff their lives away.

That’s all there is to it, right? We don’t need resolutions. With my incredulously short attention span, it’d be a gargantuous task for me to tame an ape and boil water at the same time.

Tomorrow, I shall whine about how I’m gonna fail my exams even before the start of the new school semester. Then proceed to tell the world I’m finally Level 80 in WoW and I can’t wait to raid with my guild.

Sit well and train the maid, asshole. She’s coming tmr.

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